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  • Lilí Cease: My Life Is A Movie, Pt.2 (XXLMag.com Online Article Feature)

    When was the last time you spoke to Lilí Kim?
    Me and Kim ainít spoke in six years. And thatís not on me. We went through our little bullshit, but Iím a whole different person today. I donít hold no regrets for nothing, I donít hold any grudges. What happened to me in the past, is in the past for me. This whole B.I.G. thing [with the movie], even before that, Iíve gotten to a different zone to where I made my decisions now to put my past in my past and Iím moving onto the future. Iíd love to see me and Kim sit down by the time this movie drops. I think it needs to be done. I ainít holding no grudges with anyone. I hope sheís not holding any against me. The love donít change no matter what you go through. I look it as beefing with a sister. I think experience is the best teacher. You go through things and itís good to go through them so you can see it and feel it yourself. So going through that made me sit back and realize, you know what, we were all together and we all went the wrong way. And this movie assured me, we was a family. And I want to see it like that again. And I think thatís something that should be done. I just hope sheís on the same page.


    Prior to consulting for this film, you were off the radar. What have you been doing? And is music in your future?
    Iím still doing the music. I was caught up for a minute, I had some legal situations. I got arrested a few times where I didnít know where my freedom was going to lie. So I fell back from the music thing for a minute. My head wasnít clear. After all the Kim shit, I kind of got sidetracked. I was going through a lot; I gained a lot of weight. And one day I sat there and said Iím going to change my life. From that day I decided to put everything in the past. I worked out, shaved 30 pounds. I took care of my legal situation. Itís about to be all the way taken care of. And itís all happening at the right time. Iím getting my life together and now this movie thing is coming around. So to put me back in the atmosphere itís been great. Iím probably going to put it out around the movie to catch that wave. I been working on that and consulting for the movie. So once we wrap up the movie, Iím going to get back in the studio and knock that album out. Other than that I been laying low, taking care of myself. Trying to stay out of trouble.


    JM has had its fair share of ups and downs, with Kimís trial, etc. Is there ever a possibility for a JM reunion, or does it stay as history?
    Well, Junior M.A.F.I.A. is always gonna be Junior M.A.F.I.A. People donít understand, Junior M.A.F.I.A. was just a name. A lot of people in Junior M.A.F.I.A. didnít rap. When everybody goes Junior M.A.F.I.A., they only know me and Kim, but there was nine of us. B.I.G. put them in there, because they were his homies, his friends. He told them they didnít have to rap or nothing. Sign that contract and youíll get paid. The people he did that for are the people he genuinely loved and cared about. Those nine people are who they were gonna be for life. So Iíma set them up for life. You didnít have to rap, just show up for every photo shoot and every show and you get paid. We all got paid together. So without the music, M.A.F.I.A. is going to be M.A.F.I.A.. No one broke up. The only one that separated from the others is Kim. Go to the block and youíll see some of the original members. One of my homeboys, Trife, got married and went back to school and did him. Bugsy moved to Virginia years ago, got married and had kids. Banger still does music, I still do music, Nino is still around. So whether Iím doing it, or the M.A.F.I.A. is doing it, we always going to be together. We might not ever do another movie, but even if I do a solo album, itís a M.A.F.I.A. album. We definitely looking to put together another M.A.F.I.A. album after the movie comes out, thatís in the works. But Iím focusing on me at the moment. I want to drop my solo album and then see what happens. If the light shines bright I wanna keep it moving.


    How is your relationship with D-Roc? You two had some problems before he went away, right?
    He comes home [soon]. So heíll be home sometime in May. We been talking and shit, writing each other letters. The vibe is good. He wants to come and and catch the wave of this movie. Everything is good and it just seems like everything is coming back. We all getting along and united for one cause. If anyone has any bullshit on their chest, they donít need to bring it around. We had our little situations, but we talked and settled ours.


    In the past year, hip-hop fans have seen Dipset and G-Unit have family problems between members. In a lot of ways, your crew was the first to reveal friction for people to see.
    It took a situation for us to do that. We had a nice little run for a while, where you could never break us up. But it was just that a lot of things got stirred up. After B.I.G. died, thatís what happened. We went through the depth of emotions. Not everyone knew what they wanted to do. Not every one knew how to do it. ĎCause you took away everything we stood for. B.I.G, was so powerful, we didnít know how much we didnít do until he passed. Some people were just ignorant. Drop an album? Who is gonna write it? Once you start looking around it was like, What are you going to do? All of us were going to hang it up. But then we stepped up the motivation. You canít quit like that, thatís not what B.I.G. wanted. Are you gonna go back to the streets? So we all had to turn into men. We had emotions and angers based off of what was happening. We were all mixed up and boggled over it. To the point where everybody then got fed up over things. We bottled up emotions and things just didnít work out right.



    Love is always gonna be there, though. You may get it on with your brother one day and might not speak to him for a while. But at the end of the day, if thereís an emergency and something happens, you gonna be there for your brother. And that situation could open things up again. I felt like we didnít push hard enough to try to reach each other again, as far as me and Kim. But Iím a different person today and Iíd love to reach out to Kim. I been trying to for a while now, I just am trying to find the people to put the connect together. ĎCause as far as everybody else, everybody is cool. We getting along, we rocking, we rolling. The only one that seems out the loop is Kim. But anybody in the M.A.F.I.A., anybody around the M.A.F.I.A. will welcome her back with open arms. I think Kim will come around. She donít want to miss the celebration, Iím sure. Iím sure she has her reasons, but this situation only comes around once so take advantage of it.


    Source: XXLMag.com